First crush, Second crush

Just scrolled through my facebook and realised that my childhood crush is getting married soon
Kinda sad though
Although he is my childhood crush, I still thought to myself why didn't I try to even be his friend

Then my second crush
That second crush was kinda hard to get over though
First was that I was his friend first
I liked him a lot
Became friends with him
Developed a deep crush on him
Then he went to date my younger sister
Really heart broken though
I mean I understand she is much prettier than me
But I really wished that I had a chance with him

And when they were together, after my sister slept, he would call me
To chat with me
Talked a lot about my sister but we did talked about something else
He was very gentle
Very humble, very good guy
I stayed in friendzone with him

Then when my sister and him broke up
We drifted apart
I didn't have courage to ask him out
And it was forbidden to date my sister's ex
And now when I see him with someone else
There's always a pang in my heart
He was someone that went past crush

And I wondered if we did actually start
Maybe we'd still be together